Circle of Regrets

What is for?
What is sacred?
In my circle of regrets
Circle of regrets

These stone tears are falling down on me
All my regrets...
-Lacuna Coil, Circle

Christmas is nearing but I'm hardly feeling it...

I also can't believe I've had this blog for half a year now. Also I can't believe I managed to be away from my family for half a year too. Time is so mysteriously fast. So fast in ways that we can't explain. The older we grow, the faster it goes, and the number it gets. For the first time in my life, how I wish I could be a kid again. Since I turned 15, I feel apathetic to the vespertine world. Life is such an inevitable punishment. Set me free but I don't mean death. I don't wish to die. I fear death.

I fear it...

I miss my gaming life. For once I want to indulge in hours on my PS2 again and just spend two days straight playing Final Fantasy X and X-2, Kingdom Hearts, Dragon Quest, Makai Kingdom. The PS3 is bound on 2007. I hope I'll be prudent and diligent enough to save for one although our financial status does not permit me to afford it.

I have regrets. Many of them. And don't even think about asking me to write them down on paper. Stay away. Don't break me from within...

I need more
All I want is to break
My circle of regrets
Circle of regrets

Is there any solution?
I want to find the way to escape...to go away