Cruelly Sexy

Cruel! You are angry at everything for no reason. Men love the aggression and often find it kinky. You turn your partner on and have hom in his knees.

What Kind Of Sexy Are You?

Felicity

And I'm so sad
Like a good book
I can't put this this day back
A sorta fairytale with you
A sorta fairytale with you
-Tori Amos, A Sorta Fairytale

Tomorrow we go out on another date! I love you so much my Zhou Xun! It's V For Vendetta tomorrow! Weeee!

Earlier I had to come back to Ninang's shop here in Pasay after they had to drop Tita Cherry at NAIA for work. I've always been the felicious escape artist. place me in one quandary or practical dilemma and I can work my way out of it either luckily or skillfully. I never knew how to get back home from the airport. What I did is I took a bus going to Baclaran, got off near the domestic airport and took the LRT back here. The same thing happened when we were assigned to attend that seminar in UP Diliman. And in the first place I never had an idea how to get there. Felicity is an omen I guess...

I guess I can also thank felicity for having me pass all subjects during the second semester even whe I wasn't really supposed to pass two of them. But hey, I never committed any mortal sin such as hijacking the faculty room, sneaking out my test paper, take out a cheat sheet and change the answers. Haha!

But then my greatest blessing will have to be my beloved boyfriend! Euphoria just has to mess my way of thinking and my daydreams whenever I think of him...

Migs: Oh man. I'm in deep shit today. I think I'm gonna fail English. And it's the one subject I'm NOT supposed to fail!
Jiea: Ditto. I think I'm gonna flunk Rizal anytime soon. I never really bothered to study for that subject.
Migs: Oohh! Rizal! Now that's one subject I'm acing right now!
Jiea: Really. I never knew you were this interested and diligent in a subject so dull.
Migs: 'Yan ang kapangyarihan ng kodigo.

To Be Misunderstood and Left Alone

April has got to be the most dormant month for this blog. It's been more than two weeks since I last posted something. Basically I just don't know what to write about. Many things materialize at once in my head but I just can't seem to channel these ideas into one entity.

Lately I've been gearing more bad comments from kinsmen. Yeah, I've already gotten used to being misunderstood and being notorious around the family. The point is why can't they just leave me alone, leave me the way I am? Whenever something happens to me because of my doing, I will freely admit my own fault and suffer with it. Deregatory comments don't help at all.

The news about me and my boyfriend going home late at twelve midnight spread around the family like some juicy celebrity secret. What's joyous is that they're now labeling me a bad influence to my other cousins particularly Raphael whom I now consider a very close brother. I'm thankful to Raphael that he tries to clarify my stand to our parental relatives. Not that I don't appreciate what he's doing for me but he's just fighting a losing battle. Parents are never meant to listen and understand that's why I believe it's best when I'm just left alone.

I remember the day I got my result from that test in Quizilla. It was the 'What Kind of Power Should You Have' quiz. I got the power of element control. Though the quizmakers in Quizilla aren't exactly qualified psychologists, some of their quizzes actually contain a deep amount of senses. The answers aren't only psychological but more on deeply spiritual.

I read my result over and over again and all I could mutter was "Wow...". It was amazingly accurate. People superficially think I'm mentally ill and ballistic. I don't know if it pays to be misunderstood...

Soul Searching

You Should Be a Film Writer

You don't just create compelling stories, you see them as clearly as a movie in your mind.You have a knack for details and dialogue. You can really make a character come to life.Chances are, you enjoy creating all types of stories. The joy is in the storytelling.And nothing would please you more than millions of people seeing your story on the big screen!

What Type of Writer Should You Be?

You Are 88% Open Minded

You are so open minded that your brain may have fallen out!Well, not really. But you may be confused on where you stand.You don't have a judgemental bone in your body, and you're very accepting.You enjoy the best of every life philosophy, even if you sometimes contradict yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

You Are 58% Evil

You are evil, but you haven't yet mastered the dark side.Fear not though - you are on your way to world domination.

How Evil Are You?

You Are 70% Boyish and 30% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

You Are 11 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe. 13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world. 20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. 30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more! 40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

What Age Do You Act?

So you go for miles and miles

Destination nowhere, no means or how

So you go for miles and miles

Soul searching

Soul searching tonight

-Urbandub, Soul Searching

Abhored Subjects

I don't believe this. I can't believe the relief and euphoria I've had after seeing my grade report has already vaporized just as soon as I laid eyes on it. Yeah, I was ecstatic that I never failed a subject yet I was also ashamed, or should I say dishonored that I don't really deserve to pass some of them namely Rizal and NSTP. Frankly I never gave a damn about those two subjects.

Rizal, if I have to argue with my valued life, is the dullest and most useless subject ever implemented in the Philippine educational system. Just what the fuck has Rizal's life have anything to do with my journalistic career? The one evil feature is that we get to sit in the classroom for an hour and a half feeling drugged due to boredom being lectured about the travels of Rizal all of which have little relevancy to real life. I don't know why I miraculously passed that subject since I never cooperated in the filming of Rizal's early life and to think that I did badly in the Final exam. A 3.00 would have been less surprising but a 2.50? Now that's arguable.

NSTP is twice the bullshit as Rizal. It's like we paid for three units just to sit in the classroom doing basically nothing for three damned hours. Community services were grueling as well. It's not my idea to be ready at five in the morning and volunteer (Why should it be called 'volunteer' when we're FORCED to do it in the first place?) to help sweep the streets and give food to street children. Not that I never want to be a goody two-shoes nor an apathetic bitch but those street pests are just so damn ungrateful. Give them some and they'll ask for more. Don't give them more and they'll yell all sorts of street profanity at you. I speak as if I know of the community services when I never attended a single session during the entire semester.

International Relations was an absurd decision in the first place. It's time I admit I was only kidding myself of wanting this course. It's time I step back unto my intended destiny. I'll have to die for it if I have to.

Time to step back to Journalism...

Just what does Rizal have anything to do with airplanes?
-Seis, Avionics Technology Graduate

Just what does Rizal have anything to do with Journalism?

Lyceum Grade Report

Lyceum of the Philippines University
Grade Report

FILN12A - Pagbasa at Pagsulat sa Iba't-ibang Disiplina - 2.75 - Passed
NSTP 2 - National Service Training Program 2 - Passed
JPLN10A - Jose P. Laurel Life and His Works - 2.75 - Passed
SSCN11A - Sociology/Anthropology - 3.00 - Passed
ENGN11A - Study and Thinking Skills in English
MATN13A - Business Math - 2.75 - Passed
PERN02A - Rhythmic Activities - 2.25 - Passed
SSCN12A - Rizal Course - 2.50 - Passed

Hah! And the entire week I was very hypochondriac to a cardiac arrest thinking that I was gonna fail around three subjects! And here I am passing with (flying) colors! Now to write a brief explanation to each subject.

FILN12A - I was never really interested in this subject and I never bothered to submit my utmost effort even to get a good grade. It has been my philosophy that subjects I hardly have an interest in should be only trifled with or just be taken easily, and one of them is Filipino.

NSTP 2 - Miraculous that I pass this since I never attended a community service project. I was even threatened to flunk a week before the final exams!

JPLN10A - At least a few steps more interesting than Rizal. The only topic in this subject that kept me awake is the ethereal importance of love and sacrifice for one's country. And to boot, JPL's life is more interesting than Rizal's and perosnally, I believe he is a much greater person than our own national hero.

SSCN11A - A highly interesting subject on my part yet I was too delinquent on assignments and reports. Haha!

ENGN11A - Since Mrs. Martinez had just given birth last week, the final grades still haven't been encoded yet this is one subject I NEVER have to worry about in my entire life!

MATN13A - Oh. My. God. This is even a more impossible miracle! But I just happen to make the impossible possible!

PERN02A - I'm glad I did well in the final exam...

SSCN12A - Should I even talk about this? This is one extremely dull and prosaic subject. Just who gives a fuck about some national hero who's actually not that great?

Then again, I'm gonna shift back to Journalism come the enrollment for the next sem. I feel that's where I really belong. It's time to carve destiny out of reality!

Desire

Maybe Lenne felt the same way.
The man she loved, he struggled to save her.
He fought 'til his very last breath for her.
I think that Lenne's final words might have been happy ones.
"I love you."
-Paine, Final Fantasy X-2

Now I finally understand
The meaning of the promise
We exchanged that day
I look up at a fleeting shooting star
Shining in the distant sky and smile
-Aoki Mayuko (Yuna), Morning Glow (Final Fantasy X-2 Vocal Collection)

Entwined together now
It's time to pass it over
Entwined together now
Entwined forever
-Lacuna Coil, Entwined

I have you in my dreams at night
You were holding my hands
Then I awake and you're not mine
Now it's time to rise

I want to turn cold ice in my soul
Got to freeze this yearning inside
-Lacuna Coil, Reverie

We've never been apart
The day has come
I'm feeling that your sun
Shines away from me
-Lacuna Coil, Distant Sun

I need to be with you... My Zhou Xun...