LDS - Its Prominent Friendship

A number of good and even also bad events have occurred contemporarily the past days. It’s just too unfortunate that I never set aside a block of time to somehow convert those happenings into words. No matter, I shall still have it done.

Wednesday –Yesterday- seemed an amalgamation of both events. For one thing, Glen and I nearly lost the debate since I sort of screwed up being the Deputy Leader of the Opposition. Instead I became the Rebuttal Speaker or the Whip and continually destroyed the cases risen by the Government which Glen, the Leader of the Opposition that time, didn’t adhere to. Well since I did touch (and destroyed) those cases, the Government came to believe that I actually adhered to their set proposals. It’s a good thing Glen’s proposal on the declination of E-Voting in the Philippines saved the day. It was still an argument nevertheless and the Government never had the brains (forgive my sarcasm) to touch those arguments. And since I destroyed their arguments one by one like actually separating a machine and its parts, we triumphed the debate!

Eventually, we were engaged into another debate this time about the Philippines separating itself from the WTO (World Trade Organization). Damn! Involuntarily jeopardized! We were at the Government side and none of my teammates wanted to take the responsibility of being the Prime Minister so I was somehow coerced to submit to the grave responsibility. And to think that I only knew little of the operations executed by the WTO and that compared to other positions, I make a very faulty Prime Minister. Still I did my best and though shocked as I could have been, we lost. The Opposition’s Whip, Pogi, actually enlightened the adjudicator on the essences of the WTO and for that we lost. But at least we put up a good fight and fell with heads high up and with no trace of disgust in our faces!

That night, many members of the LDS proposed that we go visit Suzy, a fellow debater, who was confined in the Chinese General Hospital. We’ve heard news that she caught the Dengue disease and was immediately rushed for initial treatment. We were relieved that Suzy was taken care of before the disease could culminate or it could have been worse. Suzy seemed alright that time. She didn’t look pale and suffering in bed. In fact she was like a vibrant friend just sitting in bed calmly waiting for a slumber party to start!

There were many of us. Glen, Mae Chelle, Frenzy, Kaku, Glady, Gelo, Billy, Kim, JJ and Aiz. Kaku seemed eager to visit Suzy that time since he was the first to board the jeep to Bluementritt, first to get off (although he was seated farthest from the exit) and first to actually enter the hospital and into Suzy’s room. I playfully labeled him “Your Knight in Shining Armor!” in front of Suzy and they all laughed heartily. We all took turns in visiting here since the hospital did not allow visitors coming simultaneously. I even willingly exited the room just to give the chance to Kaku who seemed to be hang around in the waiting area anxiously! Amazing is a guy in love.

Then it was finally time to go home since the clock in the hall disposed 9:00pm. But before we gathered at the elevator, Arice and Kuya Nonoh arrived to also pay Suzy a visit. Since no one was left to accompany the couple, Kim and I stayed behind partly because we wanted to be with Kuya Nonoh and Arice, partly because we still wanted to see Suzy and partly because we didn’t want to go home yet. It was fun how we all backstabbed (in friendly terms of course) the other guys from LDS and found out that I was “backstabbed” too. They commented on my frankness and how I speak my mind with no forks and loopholes and just straight to the point. Personally, I’ll take that as a compliment!

We all said goodbye to Suzy and went home. Thankfully, Kuya Nonoh offered to drive us in his car. We hung out at KFC in UN Avenue before everything else. It was fun. I never expected that some of we members of the LDS would hang out like this late at night. I’m glad I got home safely thanks to Kuya Nonoh’s offer and also thankful that I didn’t get a yelling from Tito Davy upon entering the doorstep. It was one night I’ll remember all my life.

Protector

Maybe this is one of the essential reasons why I wish to become a journalist...


You are a protector.
Yes, you don't like to kill people. That goes
against everything you belive in. It's not that
you are a coward, but your ideals and morals
wouldn't allow it. You are the typical hero, do
the righteous things, get the bad guys and do
it all legally. But just because you don't kill
doesn't mean you can't kick ass. And that is
what you do. You use your brain and your
strenght to do honourable deeds and protect
people you know and love. If an evil guy is
going to take over the world soon, it's you who
will get involved. You hate watching innocents
suffer, and love seeing bad people getting what
they deserve. You are probably also happy and
optimistic and work pretty good in groups. And
the friends you usually make are true ones.

Main weapon: Anything at all
Quote: "You only live once, but if
you do it right, once is enough" -Joe
Lewis
Facial expression: Smile

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Internally Inhuman

They say Pride is the most deadly of the seven deadly sins but I beg to disagree. I'd say it would have to be Greed. It is what destroyed our world in the first place.

Internally Inhuman... That's one description written on my profile. To be honest I don't really know what drove me to write it down. I've been thinking about this lately. Maybe that phrase is only half-true. The other half may be only made-up ambiguous definitions of myself but I have to be precise. I don't wanna be the type who writes down unrealistically exaggerated and almost nonesense qualities about themselves just to impress other people. What charlatans and I hate charlatans! But maybe that's one trait that composes me as internally inhuman. I hate people. Most of them are so dimwitted and simple-minded and most of all, greedy. I've written this sentence in a previous post. "It's already in the nature of humans. Prioritize the self first." Probably I personally wish to be inhuman in the first place. I exercise not to focus on self-gain (unlike some assholes from pRO) and as much as I can, I try to restrict greed from entering my sanctum of characteristics.

Chaos once quoted that he's proud to be of the human race. On my side, I find only a very few good reasons why I should be honored. 75% of the human population is composed of filth. Those who are already rich strive only to be richer thus greed is in the works. People aspire only for themselves. "I want a good job", "I want a new car", "I want a new mansion", "I want money", et cetera until the words of filth continue. Of course I aspire to become a journalist but indirectly, I'm doing this for other people too. I virtually risk my life going to places that are unfamiliar and even unknown to me. I might get killed too... I don't aspire for money, just self-discovery and translucent service for other people even if they don't deserve it.

Return to Puerto

Come October and I’ll be departing back to Puerto. After all it has been around four months. That’s quite a long time. So far the longest time I’ve been solitarily away from my family in my history. To be honest I’m really looking forward to. I’m glad we’ve decided to terminate our DSL connection for if it continues… I can’t and don’t wanna think about it. I was a bitch for even pestering Pops and having that connection not thinking that we can manage on just dial-up all along. I’m glad that we’ve had it cut off I don’t wanna hinder Pops anymore. The store’s sinking in debt. A little weight can mean a revolution of the arrow around the financial weighing scale.

But I might as well see the sunny sides of my return to Puerto! At least I get to indulge the simple provincial life again. Never will I have to worry about daily expenses and rescheduling! Until now I still can’t believe how simple-minded and immature I was four years ago. That was when we just migrated to Puerto. I was 13 years old that time. I’ve always thought that Manila life was far better and modern than life in the backyard. Trends, updates and the likes were all to you just one minute after they become discovered. But now…how much I want to eat those words back. Manila-living demands twice the amount of time, energy and money. I’m relieved I was able to adapt but not exactly joining a herd of dumb gullible sheep.

Another thing is I get to be with my family again! I miss those soft large pillows back in the house! For four months I’ve been hugging nothing but pillows that resemble flat cotton balls wrapped in aged cloth and a thin blanket that’s only effective against minor cold from a simple electric turbine. It’s also kind of empty to not have Eliza and Jenna brat around. It’s just not right without them running around screaming and crying.

I’ll come back! But then I’ll also have to return to Manila to finish the second semester then eventually my first year in college!

Journalism or Bust

I've decided. I'm shifting to AB Journalism come the next sem. Broadcasting was a dimwitted choice in the first place. I can clearly remember the day I signed up for Broadcasting. I was excited that time thinking that I've registered for a course so unique that hardly anyone will take this since they're mostly into Business Administration, HRM, Engineering and most of all, Nursing! The bandwagon course. Simple-minded fools all blinded by the thought of earning $30 an hour which is equivalent to around P1,500. Well can't they think that there's more to life than money? Which gives me another reason why I greatly despise this world. Money makes the world go round now while decades ago, it was experience that was important. Surprising how much the world has changed now.

Yikes! I'm straying off! So that's the decision! It's solid now! AB Journalism, here I come!

When the Music Fades

Music... The one thing that most people's lives revolve around on. I'll have to divulge too that I was once a music freak but not of THAT level to actually worship and devote myself to it.

To be honest, I no longer am an avid fan of the existence. As time expires, so does the creativity and the originality of music. Personally speaking, the time of the music industry's dying breath was the year 2003. Those days every song on the hit list was worth listening to and even worth buying their artists' albums. I purchased so many albums contemporarily that time! Avril Lavigne, t. A. T. u., Evanescence, Utada Hikaru, and lots lots more! But now... Almost all artists are one-hit wonders. Yeah, maybe they'll blossom but only VERY temporarily. If one artist right now has become famous due to a song then she oughta be thankful if that fame manages to extend to one year. So many artists, so many songs, and so few chances to blossom. I'm betting my imminent fame that Kitche Nadal won't last long for the year 2006. And to be honest, "The Day You Said Goodnight" by Hale is becoming more of an earsore than a lullaby. That's why I clandestinely discourage those blockheads who aspire to become famous singers and band vocalists. Music is dying... Slowly but surely it's dying.

Sorry for those who read this blog who know nothing of the artists mentioned above. They're all Filipino local artists and their popularity is not extended to foreign areas.

But still, I'm glad that previously famous songs are still alive to keep me emotinally entertained and uplifted. Might as well list them down here! It's only once a year that I organize my thoughts and favorites! =)

Anything But Ordinary - Avril Lavigne (Mom said that this song reminded her a lot about me. I might as well write the full details behind this songs in another entry.)
How Does It Feel - Avril Lavigne
Imaginary - Evanescence
My Last Breath - Evanescence
Not Gonna Get Us - t. A. T. u.
How Soon Is Now - t. A. T. u.
Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru
Final Distance - Utada Hikaru
Dreamin' Of You - Selena
Hysteria - Def Leppard
Rocket - Def Leppard
Broken Heart - White Lion
S.O.S. For Love - Modern Talking
Crawling - Linkin Park
Easier To Run - Linkin Park
Find Your Way Back - Michelle Branch
A Thousand Miles - Vanessa Carlton
When I'm Gone - 3 Doors Down
Away From The Sun - 3 Doors Down
Suteki Da Ne? (Isn't It Wonderful?) - Rikki (from Final Fantasy X)
1000 Words - Jade from Sweetbox (from Final Fantasy X-2)
Eyes On Me - Faye Wong (from Final Fantasy VIII)
Morning Glow - Aoki Mayuko (from Final Fantasy X-2)

Humans II - Greed

I was taught that we are all plagued by sins and there are varieties of them. Yet I believe the most nefarious of them all is greed. Greed is the root of all moral destruction occurring across our land. People, or should I say, humans only live to benefit for themselves. The self is always the first priority. Never mind the others coexisting with them. As long as they are nurtured and provided for, to hell with other trivial subjects and beings. That is why greed is the one sin I should to avoid. I’ll still be able to forgive myself if I am to be manipulated by pride or insubordination but not greed. I’ll never ever forgive myself for letting something disparaging take over me. The world is already a thoroughly obliterated place. I don’t want to worsen it further. If given the mighty prerogative, I’ll restore this world to its pinnacle. Dream on, Jiea. That’s light-years of an overstatement already.

Why, it was greed that destroyed Ragnarok Online in the first place. Everything may not have been socially and financially perfect but it was far better that way. Far more peaceful and the almost the entirety wasn’t that competitive yet. Fun was the prerogative. If only I could wave a magic wand and transform pRO back to how it was two years ago, nothing could have been more delightful. But now… It’s like an “online” offline server. People cheat the hell out of each other in order to reach the pinnacle. It has become too fierce. I’d rather withdraw myself from such menial carnage than to continue playing a game along and against cheaters.

Prioritize the self first. It’s already in the nature of humans. Hateful creatures…

Crucify My Love

Crucify My Love
Written by Jiea Dee on October 14th, 2004
End my suffering... Kill me now... Please...

One day you came, you gave your hand
You came, you cared, showed me the land
You laughed, you smiled, you took my hand
You were my rock, you helped me stand

You were my knight protecting me
You were my guardian watching over me
You had a vow not to leave me alone
Please my love, don't ever abandon me

And then it came that cruel day
The day you had to walk away
You took one step, could you hear me say...?
"Don't go!" but you were already a distance away

Although you cared, my heart you still tormented
Your presence illuminated, for that you repented
You're a fragment of my core, disappear and I'm sore
Your absence hurts, torment me no more

Your name I screamed, my hand outstretched
Into that blackness my fragment was released
That fragment was you, levitating in the dark
Just let me die... My life's not worth a spark

Many nights I spent unslept
You left behind a promise unkept
Still you turned and walked away
"Don't go!" I said, still you didn't hear me say

I watched the darkness, my hand still outstretched
You stabbed my heart now bleeding with regret
Memories came in waves I couldn't forget
Soaring swiftly back to the day we met

You're gone now, you walked away
You're gone now, I'm left alone
Your voice still echoes across my reverie.
"Come now, take my hand"

Reality intruded, shrouding the reverie
That harsh reality raining with my fears
I'm eternally lost, reverie's my sole refuge
To not leave me lying pouring crimson tears

It's no use. I am forever lost
Nothing can heal this perennially bleeding gash
You've now gone away, just please set me free
So now I ask of you, perennial loss

Crucify my love, just let it die...

*A poem written through tears for a lost romance*

Humans

"If peoeple have to eradicate each other in order to survive then why is the whole world so fussed up about social security and protection?"

Humans... What are they anyway? A threat to their own kind?

Humans. Such a mundane word in my vocabulary during the days of my youth and naivete. But as time and I grew up, so did my conception through the word. Well not only the word but the essence itself. Humans. Should I be honored and thankful in being a part of the human race? A lot of people are but I'm only half grateful. I believe we are such a foul race. Backed up by that field called technology has only made us reek a whole new level worse. For many times I wished that I was not human in the first place but then what else is there to be? I don't wanna be a mindless animal nor an element of nature. But if only it was possible, it would feel magical to transform into wind and just fly whenever you want to with absolutely nothing to hold you back. such freedom only a few are gifted. Yet those gifted often abuse that freedom. Abuse - Another word that huamsn tend impassively overdo. Are humans naturally born to be swayed and manipulated by the ways of evil? Are we? Am I too...?

I've spent the last two days reading all ten volumes of Ragnarok: Into The Abyss. Now first and foremost, I don't mean that wretched online game desecrated by humans. I'm already shameless to admit that Master Diwa is already among them. If ever he reads this part of the blog then I don't care what he'll think next. Although we've already pacified about that phenomenal argument I commenced between us, I consider our friendship erased. We only knew each other well in a game. In an entirely new dimension. But come to real life terms, no explanations necessary for that part. Anyway, I've lost track of the objective. Time to head back.

Into The Abyss truly is intriguing. It involves largely the human race and the scum that composes it. Humans are weak. Ages ago I thought it was only an overused cliche in stories but I've come to realize that it's true. In fact too true. Humans are weak. More accurately defined as a physically larger version of a parasite. Most humans just rely on other humans for their oen survival eventually draining that human of life force while the parasite lives.

"You're hankering after the valuables buried here. That's all you hard-hearted two-faced humans ever cared for. Mankind has always been covetously greedy creatures!"
-Reina, Ragnarok: Into The Abyss, Volume 9

That hit hard. She's right. Too right...

Cry

"If you feel like crying, go on and cry. no one is stopping you. 'Coz if you just stop the tears from coming out, it'll only hurt more."
-Pops

Strange. For many nights now I find myself pouring a deluge of tears before falling asleep. I've been thinking of things. A LOT of things. And they're not as pretty as anyone thinks. Hell why would I be crying over such sunny and delightful things? Again, there is this pirouette of misfortunes that keep spinning and with me placed in the center. Most of the time they spin too fast that I can't take it anymore and just collapse hence my unexpected fall to sleep or temporary unconsciousness.

Tears are the blood of the soul. When it's hurt, it bleeds in tears.

Crying... One misconception of people is that when one cries, that one is in grief. That's what I thought too but just one night a few years ago, I found myself crying before falling asleep again and it wasn't due to sadness or grief or anything like that. That time I was angry. Mad. Furious. A grudge against this unfair world I'm standing on. So great is that grudge that my chest couldn't contain it anymore. It gradually grew bigger and bigger the more I tried to sleep until it was already contricting my entire body. I had to provide space for its density that I had to let the tears out to make room. And surprisingly, it did feel a bit loose and relieving... I cried because of anger. that's when I realized that I wasn't crying for grief but for anger instead.

So maybe the correct definition of cry is an overdose in emotion. We cry when we're too sad, depressed, worried, anxious, scared, and even excited or happy. But why I don't get is that everytime we cry, it's almost always because of grief. Rare is a moment when we cry due to joy or happiness or gratefulness. Why is the world so full of pain anyway? If not the world then why are we so full of pain?

Feelings Overwriting Time

Evil has drawn near... Or am I the one drawing myself near to evil?

Once again, I have failed. Literally. I failed my midterm exam in History. I've no one to blame for that consequence but myself. I loafed around and wasted away the time provided to study and look at what I've indirectly yet deliberately placed myself. I just hope the same nefarious consequence won't darken my later days. I hope I do pass my tests in Math and Filipino. Nah, I'm sure I will! I'm feeling quite confident but I still can't help if a feeling of doubt lingers. But I'll be fine! I'm sure I will be!

If I am to write about this constant of hatred of mine towards school, it might occupy the entire blog but I still wanna write about it! But how to summarize!? Which part of the succulence should be squeezed out of the lemon? I don't feel like typing it right now. I feel it is more productive if I write it down on paper. Til then now.

Oh yeah, I still haven't finished reading My Fair Lady. 'Tis my chosen book report as a final requirement for English. Although I'm nearly halfway through the book (provided the introductions as well as the picture clippings), I've decided to start the book from the very beginning due to the fact that there are important fragments of the story that I failed to understand because of that astoundingly deep vocabulary and manner of speaking. with the aid of my pocket dictionary, I shall fully decipher the story and in the end submit a well-detailed report! Oh yeah!

Well I've been writing a lot lately! Once again my poor concrete journal has been neglected but no matter! I shall reunite with it! Might as well save some for a new post! Eliminating those hateful Final Fantasy X spams is within grasp. Just a little time... Just a little more...

"Do not let emotions overwrite judgment."
-Loki, Ragnarok: Into The Abyss, Volume 9

Primal Spamtasy

*Originally written on September 4th, 2005 7:12am*

Oh sweet. Internet prepaid is completely consumed! Oh man, guess I’ll have to put up with Word for now and just paste the entire text into the blog. A good way to keep Rainbow Reverie alive! Well better this than spamming my way through dressing up the mess I’ve made on the blog. If only I wasn’t so gratuitous for spamming those Final Fantasy X results! *Groan*. Might as well wear my butt out and post read-worthy entries.

Speaking of spams, I superbly spurn spams! They’re things of evil and most recently the most deadly infestations of a majority of message boards, forums, email ads and even blogs! I believe that those who spam for a hobby are nothing more but natural lunatics. Just what gave them the notion that spamming and typing in such delirious manners such as aLtErNaTiNg CaPs and the overuse of emoticons are nothing more but eyesores? They’re a nuisance and not a need! Damn simple-minded charlatans. Simple-mindedness is another thing I thoroughly despise.

Reminds me of a few jackasses from the Grand Lethal Forums. I dare not mention them here in Rainbow Reverie for I don’t wanna risk being hunted down. Probably that’s one rational reason why I wanna avoid message boards and forums for now. Open the page and be greeted with spams! What joy! No wonder I’ve lost whole interest. Now I prefer blogs. They’re more focused on oneself and are largely in control of the reduction and prevention of spams.

So paradoxical life can get. Before I was so naïve of Internet-surfing and along came downloading truckloads of pictures and wallpapers. I wasn’t into chat that time but was addicted, even devoted to emailing. What sweet memories. Those days when I had a circle of e-friends and we would regularly exchange mail telling each other about our lives and videogames of course! Eventually we got too tedious of emailing each other and along came Fan Fictions. Those days when I dreamt of becoming a professional novelist. Right after my obsession to Fan Fictions conquered the most abysmal of them all: Ragnarok Online. My longest, darkest and deepest time of my life both online and in the real world. I’m glad I managed to liberate myself from that…I don’t even know the correct words to describe it!

Anyway, I better go. I can’t miss breakfast or I’ll starve! ‘Sides, I still have the fourth chapter of Final Fantasy X-2 to accomplish.

Words of Wisdom from Videogames

Maybe Lenne felt the same way.
The man she loved, he struggled to save her.
He fought 'til his very last breath for her.
I think that Lenne's final words might have been happy ones.
"I love you".
-Paine, Final Fantasy X-2

Darkness dwells in every heart no matter how pure.
-Squall Leonhart, Kingdom Hearts

If we die trying to save one memory, we risk losing them all.
-Wakka, Final Fantasy X-2

Memories are just memories. There's nothing more to it.
-An Al Bhed saying, Final Fantasy X-2

Every story must have an ending.
-Auron, Final Fantasy X

Fear its soul for it knows no terror!
-Beatrix, Final Fantasy IX

When man has power, he seeks to use it.
-Yevon's teaching, Final Fantasy X

Separated

It's been long. Well not so long to be registered as history. It hasn't even been a year but I can say it's been long. Well it's been quite long since Mom and Pops separated and I'm surprised it's not creating a chain reaction of quandaries. For three long and abysmal years they did nothing but argue and almost hit the guts out of each other. It was like a nightmare that I'll never wake up from in a long time. I'm just glad that nightmare has finally ended but I can't say it ended a happy ending. They separated. But still I have to be thannkful for the fact that it has been more peaceful and selene this way. At least no more shouting at dawn, no more violent breaking of glasses, no more nightmares.

Other than Mom and Pops being separated from each other, I am separated from my family. That day at the airport was so... I don't know how to explain it. I wanted to cry and at the same time I wanted to smile. Still there are aspects when it's better this way. No more telling me what to do or how to behave and the pinnacle of all is I get to test myself and see if I'm competent enough to compete in the stadium of the real world. Unfortunately, no more Mom and Pops to back me up but still I'll manage. I depend on myself for all instances. Well I should in the first place! Who else am I to run to but myself? Being too dependent on other people even to kinsmen can somewhat be a weakness.

And to also think I've been separated from Eths and my other friends from St. Peter for four long years. It was hard. I couldn't find new friends to replace them here in Puerto. Of course I'm not denying that Monix was a very good friend to me but still absolutely no one will ever replace Eths and the rest. Even after four years we managed to preserve our friendship. One of the most miraculous things I'm thankful for in my life. I'll forever treasure this.

Separation is but a shock. One must believe...

Even though you weren't able to see it, I had faith in you.
-Lulu to Wakka, Final Fantasy X-2

What else...?

Let's see... What else to write about? Too surprisingly I'm running out of ideas.

Oh yeah, our midterm exams! God, how time flies! Just some months ago I was excited about the first day of college and now the midterms have come.

Don't feel like writing now...

The End of a Fantasy

Hee hee, just a window next to this one here is a guide on finishing Final Fantasy X-2 once and for all! But before all that I might as well worry about obtaining the Mascot Dressphere, Via Infinito in Bevelle and finding the Ten Gatekeepers first. That's still a little ooze of percentage of the game. Although the possibility of completeing the game 100% is already an overstatement of an impossibility, it's still worth it! I hope I can even make it to finishing the game within the borders of 90%.

I wonder when Final Fantasy XII will be released? It's been two years since the release of the English Version of Final Fantasy X-2. I've also waited long for Kingdom Hearts 2: Door to the Light. Three long years have passes since I've beaten that game. To be honest I'm running out of means of entertainment even on my PS2 partly because it isn't fully-formatted yet. It's picky on CD's and sometimes won't load certain games. Oh my poor GTA: San Andreas. I hope you won't gather too much dust on my shelf and be sent adrift in the seas of oblivion. Well, that was poetic!

Another lovely memory comes! T'was nearly four years ago when I first heard of Final Fantasy X. It was the very reason why I wanted a PS2 in the first place. How my emotions would ricochet all over my body at just the sight and thought of Tidus! But that was way before. Too "rotten" now to be reminisced. Time I look ahead on more exciting games. Ta-ta to online games for now since high chances are they'll eventually be corrupted. (Damn pRO!)

Fantasy Frenzy

Until now I can't believe I only took this revently to actually play Final Fantasy X-2 completely! almost threee years ago I waited nine whole months just for the English version of the sequel to Final Fantasy X. The moment I acquired it I met a disappointment. And for two years straight I never bothered to even touch the game. I'm just glad I've regained interest in the game to keep me entertained.

Too bad it's already impossible for me to attain the 100% game now that I've screwed up at the Bandit Prevention mission in The Moonflow. But it's okay though! My only goal is to see all endings of the game with my very own accomplishments! Well, with little credit to the walkthroughs scattered all over the world-wode web!

It's unfortunate that my PC isn't competent enough to house Final Fantasy XI. It must have been gorgeous to play an online Final Fantasy game. Doesn't matter though! There's still Final Fantasy XII and Kingdom Hearts II to keep me excited! And to think there are still treasure troves of games that await to be played! Metal Gear: Snake Eater, Star Ocean: Till the End of Time, Grand Theft Auto: San Andreas, and lots lots more! Weeee!!

The time I've separated myself from Ragnarok Online has long been history in my life. I never wish to set foot on those days again. My reunion with my PS2 is much cherished!

Morning Glow (English Version)

Morning Glow (English Version)
Translated English Version by Jiea Dee
Original Japanese Version by Aoki Mayuko
Tune of the Original Japanese Version Retained

In my mind comes a lovely memory
Came a view I once knew
And I once had when you depart
Then when I reached
To touch your face streaming with tears
Vanishing hazily, the darkness conquers then it dies

Shattered thoughts they fade away
As reality forced itself in my dream
My visions crystallize
I see your crying eyes
Tears flowed in a crimson stream

Finally, now I fully understand
Words exchanged, truth remained
In our hearts, they’ll never die
See a star, watch it as it glides across the sky
Sparkling distantly, I give a smile as it flies by

Even times when my eyes just go astray
They’re brought back come what may
Looking at your eyes
This distant terrain lets me see far away skies
Always

Finally now I fully understand
Words exchanged, truth remained
In our hearts, they'll never die
See a star, watch it as it glides across the sky
Sparkling distantly, I give a smile as it flies by

Finally now I fully understand
Words exchanged, truth remained
A promise made that very day
See a star, watch it as it glides across the sky
Sparkling distantly, I give a smile as it flies by

Need...More...Ideas... *Blag*

*Sigh* What balony am I writing up in here!? Some lame loophole to eliminate this mess I made!? But still it's balony worth reading. Better than menial profanity or pointless poetry IMO.

It's been two weeks since I've inquired at The Sentinel Press and still no job done! I'm such a doofus! Lazy lazy lazy! Keep this up and I'll go crazy! What rhymes!

So anyway, I still don't know what sort of feature story I should submit to gain full membership to the press. The Lyceum Debate Society's one good example as well as the misconception of people on videogames! So many yet so few to write about! What irony the human mind works on! One minute it's swimming with euphoric ideas then once a pen lays in the hand, nothing! Zero, zilch, zippal! Nil, null, naught! *Groan*

I better dig more ideas up in this dumpsite of a mind.

Now or Never

Hmm, I better not release my composure regarding this blog here. I've begun it already and it's far too late now to abandon it. I may have it messed it up but I'm still gonna dress it up with my very own almost esoteric posts and personal submissions! I'm rockin' the house, baby!

It's been half a month now since the deadline of that RMAF Essay Writing Contest and still no result! Maybe I'm just wishing for a shooting star to actually fall down which is practically more than a miracle. Maybe it was a fool's wish to actually aim for that P100,000 grand prize. *Sigh* There goes my imaginary GameBoy Advance SP. But who cares!? I can still live without one! My PS2 can keep me entertained!

Then again, midterm exams are coming! I better proliferate good grades to be able to shift to AB Journalism! Signing up to Broadcasting in the first place was a mundane thing to do. I'm thankful that it's still too early for me to shift to my truly desired course. But still some sort of sixth sense is swaying me to the side of Public Relations... Too early to think about that!